awake at this odd hour

i'm stil awake coz i'm in london now. gloomy as usual, weather sux and i choose to stay in the room today. headache when thinking bout food when my stomach is still growling after i fooled it by filling in some coffee pairing with oreo and instant noodle. i miss sizzling hot food again. i can eat non-stop now when there is a proper meal provided and no time constraint. talking bout meal, i got no chance to have reunion dinner during cny this year. the first week of cny is basically all gone becoz of the flying pattern. it's actually quite a sad thing when u fly oversea alone and all u can do is just imagine how joyful are the rest celebrating the festival. i'm not sure how long that i will be still doing this. what i can tell is, the more events that i miss out, the more it reminds me how much that i dislike bout this job. tat's why i m in such a sad n happy dilemma: got many offdays during the wrong time, get to visit to alot of places but it was all in unleisure mode. whatever beautiful things that u can think of, there is a sad story hidden behind.

life's like tat.